Weary ...

we had some b-e-a-utiful weather this weekend and it makes me want spring time to come even faster! i needed a child to borrow so i could go to the park and play:) but, instead i stayed in bed till around 11 on Saturday and then drug myself up to shower and get dressed, had lunch with the family and ran my brothers to town. this has become my usual routine the last couple of months, after work, weekends . . .just sleeping the time away, I just dont want to do anything... Saturday afternoon i finally had to bite the bullet and buy 2 front tires for my jeep . . .uhg, that cost more than my car payment! but they were really really bad and pretty much about to literally burst and was not safe to drive anymore, i knew i would have to have it done before march when i have inspection due but was hoping i could wait a few more weeks, but its done and i dont have to worry about having a blow out anymore!




Saturday night while on the way to New Orleans preston got his trainer to stay around tyler for the night and he got to come home! it was good to see him even if he had no hair and lots of beard, yuck lol. He was here for a whole 15 hours! then around 11 this morning i dropped him off back at his truck and he was on his way again and wont be home for a long time, and i probably will not see him at all in february :(  In January i saw him a total of 9 days so thats 22 days apart. im absolutely not fond of how this year is going to be. yes, i think i do need a happy pill. its hard to function without my crazy other half some days :)

It has started to thunder and rain here and fits my mood this afternoon. I was going to go to Overton and see my great aunt but just dont want to have that sadness and decided to stay home, i will try and go after work tomorrow when im already up and doing things all day. Work is going to be very stressful this year on top of my personal life and im just ready for 2011 to end . . . its only Jan 3oth? for real? i was optimistic about this year but as my husband has always said im such a realist and pessimistic and its so true and its only been a month into it and im done with it lol. sometimes its just hard to see the good for a while, i need to find some peace of mind . . .and im not sure where to look. who wouldnt be a little down and depressed with what i have been through the last 4 months and when im no closer to it getting any better than i was then its just hard to be positive and go forward. i just tell myself that it will all work out eventually and be ok ... but im starting to doubt that too.




"Come to me all who are weary & burdened and i will give you rest ..."
 Matthew 11:28  -
this shall be my verse this year


JwF

Survey!

Q: What is your name given at birth?
A: Jennifer Lynn Wood

Q: Why were you given your particular name?
A: Daddy named me Jennifer (his name is Jefferson) and Lynn is my moms middle name

Q: If you had to change your first name right now, what name would you choose for yourself?
A: I wouldn't, i LOVE the name Jennifer, seriously.

Q: What is your hometown/town of birth?
A: Tyler, Tx

Q: Where do you currently reside?
A: Tyler :)

Q: What do you do?
A: work? i work as an office asst. for a pain Dr.

Q: What is your hair color?
A: Brown

Q: Have you loved somebody so much it made you cry?
A: Yes


Q: Are you a cat or dog person?
A: Dog, if it stays outside

Q: Have you ever had a pet that was a cat or dog? 
A: Yes, a few beagle puppies, named snoopy & toby, i loved the movie *the great mouse detective* when i was little and they had a basset hound named toby so most all of my puppies were named that lol

Q: What is your favorite food? Favorite drink?
A: Italian & Mt. Dew

Q: Do you play a musical instrument?
A: sadly no, i always wanted to play piano.

Q: Are you a morning or night person?
A: Morning

Q: Do you believe in extraterrestrials or life on other planets?
A: I believe there is the possibility of life on another planet(s). The universe is enormous. Do I believe that we've been contacted by aliens or that we have a chance of contacting them? Not so much. Still love Xfiles though!

Q: Who or what kind of person do you want to spend your life with?
A: He would make me laugh, be weird, be original, be understanding, be smart, oh wait ... that IS who i married :)

Q: What is your favorite kind of music?
A: Country, Christian

Q: Croutons or bacon bits?
A: Bacon bits

Q: What are your favorite sports to watch?
A: Baseball

Q: What is your preferred ice cream?
A: Orange Leaf please :)

Q: What do you do most often when you are bored?
A: Watch movies/TV, play on the computer, books, nap :)

Q: Name the person you are friends with that lives the farthest away?
A: thankfully no one really lives too too far away

Q: If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
A: PiNk!

Q: What's your favorite sport to play?
A: good old school neighborhood game of kickball :)

Q: What scares you?
A: drowning, fires, someone i love dying before knowing Jesus, being alone forever.

Q: What is a personality trait in others that really irritates you?
A: refusal to talk about, think about, reconsider, argue for/against their opinions. (i.e., narrow-minded).

Q: What is the best day of the year?
A: March 5th :) 

Q: Do you like to dance?
A: Yes. i can get down to the Cupid Shuffle!

Q: Have you ever been in love? Are you now? If not, do you want to be?
A: Yes. Yes, N/A

Q: Hugs or Kisses?
A: Hugs

Q: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
A: Confidence in myself & looks, that has always been a struggle, when you are one of 10 kids you'll never be the tallest, the smartest or the prettiest.

Q: Where would you like to retire?
A: All over the world - I'd prefer to travel and keep traveling 

Q: What's your favorite flower?
A: A tulip

Cookies for breakfast!

Thursday is here . . . and it brings with it a friend, named Friday! but we'll talk about that friend later, lets stay on Thursday and what it brings ... 

Yummy :) this was my ( and the girls in the office) Breakfast this morning, Lauren never ceases to amaze me with her Cookies! morethanchocolate.net  these did not last long at all :) wonder why.

tonight is part 1 of 2 - Real Housewives of Beverly Hills reunion! cannot wait! well actually i may be asleep by then and may have to catch it tomorrow but either way its going to be sssooooo good! its my second favorite, i also love New Jersey & NY. these women are crazy and obviously need something to do.

this is me, obviously. i have been growing my hair out for what seems like ages! and i'm so tired of the stage its in right now, it seems to be stuck and its either cut it off again or go insane a few more months till it grows a few more inches and is manageable. uhg. i am going to start taking some Biotin & Hair & Nails vitamins and see if this boost it along. if my boobs can grow so can my hair! then i need to remember how to fix longer hair ... my sisters always did my hair when i was little and it was nice then but now its a pain because i dont know how to do anything with it, i just want it long enough to wear curly again.

this afternoon is busy at work and i hope it makes the day fly by, i may ::crosses fingers:: get to leave a little early today or tomorrow . . . i feel so tired today and could crawl in bed right now.

JwF

.....

Matthew 28:20 - teaching them to observe all things that I commanded you. Behold, I am with you always, even to the end of the age. Even when your friend can't be with you, He is always with you!


This is going to be a hard year and you will hear me gripe a lot! But someday I'll
Be able to look back and smile ... Right?


JwF

Weekend....

My weekend,
well Friday night I babysat my 3 kiddos and didn't get home until 2am! And by the time I got home I was wide awake so I watched an episode of SVU: then passed out, I slept until about 9 Saturday morning which is not normal For me. But it was Lovely and since I didn't have anything planned and didn't have my husband to spend time with :( I decided to stay in bed and have a little svu: marathon, I'm almost to season 5! I should be tired of it but I'm not! I think I finally pulled myself out of bed around 3 and ran to town to buy new bras ... So exciting to go up a size! Bahaha. That night I had a hot date with my Laura and I brought my sister Emily along with us to posado's , yum. Then we went home and all watched sex and the city2 and had a good time. I need company so I don't go insane! But no one compares to the one I really want to see, 4-6 weeks before I see his hairy face again.

Sunday I went to Overton to see my aunt syble in the nursing home, that was depressing to say the least. It's in a tiny town, 45 min away and the place is so small and she has a roommate and the space is tiny, she looked so fragile curled up in that bed and i know her will to live is gone, everytime I see her she says I just wish I would die, I don't want to live like this. And it breaks my heart. She is the only "grandmother" i have really had and I just never thought we would get to this point and have to put her somewhere....:( I'm going to print out some photos and bring to her next time I go up so she can have something to look at on her wall. I pray she is comfortable and finds some peace.

So here we are, just another manic Monday. I'm hoping this week goes by fast, I have a lunch date with Kelly Anne Friday so that's something to look forward too and hopefully another girls movie night!

JwF

Summoned again?!

I just had jury duty in nov. And apparently our court system has me in the computer as wood and fritz still so I get called twice as often! So not fair.

New week, new situations, ah ... Love it. Today has been so busy but it's been smooth without major issues. I'm so ready to be in my own space again! These last 3 and half months have gone by fast but i also feel i havent gotten any closer to my goal. I want my bed and my couch and my beautiful dishes! I miss cooking for my husband and having game nights with our friends. Oh how I pray it's like that again soon! I'm just tired of struggling so much and putting on a happy front. But it will be okay and ill just count down days until life is normalish again:) Preston drove to Pensicola,FL yesterday and was heading out to Washington, DC today. His trainer this time is a 67 year old man who speaks English! And he said he is very friendly so he is having a much better time this go around. So his mood is so much more happy! Once he is done training he'll be out on his own! Scary. I'm sure he is nervous but it will be good for him to get out on his own and make it, I think he wants to do team driving with a guy he did school with after a little while too.

In 6 short litte weeks is my 2 year wedding anniversary and our 6 yr together anniversary, man how time flys! I hope Preston can come home around that time because I want to get our picture done, we haven't had any done by someone since our wedding! Which is crazy because I'm such a picture addict, I guess life has been too busy since then lol. I know this guy I'm probably going to use this time, haven't ever before but he is pretty good and people I used to have do them are not available really anymore. So I need to start thinking of an outfit ... Hmm. I'll probably just raid my sisters closet. Cannot believe we have been together for 6 years, we have been through a lot of ups and downs and still love each other:) I never thought marriage was going to be easy but it's still harder than I thought sometimes and I have seen so many young marriages fail recently and it makes me work even harder to keep mine! If my parents can make it 32+ years and 10 babies then anyone can lol.

Such randomness today, that is my mood:) one week down and not sure how many more to go till I see my husband again but I hope it's not another 3 1/2 weeks!

JwF

Here we go again ... Sigh

Well I had a good weekend and this week has been going pretty smooth, but this morning Preston had to go back to Dallas and wait to go on the road again:( 

he cried last night, cried this morning and so did I! Hate this. It sucks. Seeing my husband cry and tell me he doesn't want to go and me having to make him makes me so sad and feel bad. This time was even harder than the first, although the first time we thought he'd be gone a week, 2 weeks at the most and that turned into 4 1/2 so i guess we just know how long its really going to be this time and that makes it so much harder to say goodbye, when he'll be back again for a few days i dont know .... but i do know ill miss him and i love him! being apart is truly the worst feeling and i worry about his safety day and night. I just pray for protection and for him to come home safe!

JwF

Crazy weather

Living in tyler we have some crazy weather, one day I'm in short sleeved shirts and the next we have SNOW! Crazy. This is my jeep covered and my sister about to make a snowball to chunk at me!

I didn't want to play in the snow and get wet and sick but I did watch my family have violent snow ball fights;) and then they took an old car hood and tied it to the back of the 4wheeler and went sledding ... Redneck. LoL but they had fun. snow is rare and pretty to see but .... i hate cold and im ready for summer!!!

JwF

Days of rest...

Woohoo! I finally got this blogger to work on my iPhone! Had to go into settings on here and update something, really I had no idea what I was doing just got lucky:) ever since I got my iPhone I'm not really on my laptop as much unless I'm watching a missed tv show on it and so I don't really have a chance to get on here and ramble about my so very boring life lol so maybe I will more now that I can get on from my phone.

So after 4 long weeks Preston finally got to come home for a week and I booked us a few nights in Dallas to get away from the real world that is quite depressing now days and such a drag and I needed a little sunshine! We left Thursday around lunch and headed out on our road trip. We had some great food, went to the galleria a couple of times because it's so massive and i went to "HomeGoods" my most favorite store ever... I picked out this colorful and rather strange teapot that i just had to have, its pretty awesome to me:) and i got Lots if snuggle time and just tried to enjoy each others company because we both know it's going to be a while before we get to see each other again because when he leaves early next week he'll probably be gone another month... Boo! But after that he'll be done with training and out driving on his own hopefully and a real paycheck ... I'm pretty excited about that lol. I just keep telling myself that after a year or two he can be home more and work local and it's going to go by fast. Right?

Atleast I know what I'll be doing to pass the time while he is gone this go around ... I love, love law & order SVU and got seasons 1-10 on DVD!! I have watched disc 1 of the first season and 5 more to go. Im thinking it won't take me long to watch all of them though lol but not to worry because I also ordered the complete series on xfiles and I'm waiting on that to come in, yay!! I was so into that weird show and still love it :)

So here's to my first post from my phone and many more to come! Hug the ones you love, it's such a blessing taken for granted ....

JwF

Exercise .... blah

me? little 98 pound Jennie, exercise? ha no way! ....

well over the past few months i have gone into the triple digits! 101-102 ( i know you people are thinking omg thats nothing! but to my little body its a lot ) and with those few pounds i have gained some unflattering tummy weight that makes my dad and brothers think im hiding a growing baby .... sigh .... all that sitting at my desk eating CANDY & Mt. Dews all day and the extra Holiday food has really caught up to me. really, if i wasn't so embarrassed by it i would post a picture, i totally look 4 months pregnant, especially after i eat a big meal. when i can no longer suck in my tummy and make it flat, there is a problem. So .... i guess ill make one of those new year resolution things .... i'm going to walk/jog 1-2 miles a day ( more in the summer when its not so cold!) and hopefully that will boost my metabolism back into action! i need to do some of those dreaded sit ups but A: they hurt and B: it takes forever to see results and i want it now! I really need to cut back on my junk food intake ... maybe i can go to 1 soda a day and not quite as many sweets, i need to keep something more healthy to snack on at work, when i'm sitting around all day i just want to eat all the time ( whats something good to snack on that wont turn into pounds of fat?!?!) This ... is .... a ... problem. So anyways thats my plan .... hope i can stick to it because im tired of my pudgy non-pregnant belly!

My husband has been gone for over 4 weeks now :( boo! BUT he is getting to come home in the next day or two for a week! woohoo! i am going to take a couple of days off of work and we are going to go out of town for a few nights, probably the ft. worth/dallas area to spend some time together and do something fun, eat at some good places we dont have in tyler, im hoping to go to my favorite Breakfast spot *Cafe Brazil* that aunt Ruthye got me addicted to, and stop by the HomeGoods store! my absolute most favorite store EVER! then we'll come back home and ill share him with the rest of the world for a few days before he leaves again to finish his last few weeks of training. So i am so looking forward to this week! so just a couple more days of work then some much needed time with my hunny :)

in a few months i hope to have a better idea of our future plans. .. . so ready to be back in a house with my things! but thankful for mama & daddy :) i would hate to be alone right now while preston is away so much. I will be stronger from this experience. My goal this year, is to get A LOT of $$ saved when preston starts really working/driving and buy me a house! then i can have my little mini me in 2012 .... sounds good to me, but i often have different plans than God has for me :) maybe we can meet in the middle somewhere? hope so!

Hope everyone has a wonderful week!

JwF

It's a new Year ...

I am so very happy to see 2010 be done with! some things that i did love this year were ...

1 - my 1st wedding anniversary

2- my honeymoon cruise!

um but not much else lol. the last few months of this year have been very testing and im ready for a fresh start and for new better doors to open!

I had a wonderful Christmas Holiday & Birthday, if only Preston could have been here to share it with me, he has been gone for 4 weeks now and its been really hard and im so over this being away thing. But if he can just stick with it for a couple of short little years ( oh who am i kidding thats not short!) then he can come back to tyler and have something where he is home most nights. the old saying that absence makes the heart grow fonder is so true though, i cannot wait till i get to see Preston in a few days, he'll be home hopefully in the middle of the week and get to stay a week i hope. I do not plan on sharing very much, sadly i will have to work during the week so he can go see other people from 8-5 and mine after that! I think we will go away for a few days and preston will finally get to open all his christmas gifts too! poor thing was in a hotel in vegas all alone for Christmas, and new years ... um i think new mexico driving all night. He is ready to be home for a few days!

here are just a couple of pictures from the holidays ( hundreds are on FB )

this is my 4 brothers, Adam, Elliott, Benjamin & Christopher, so grown up!

my sisters and I, Emily, Christina, Me, Bo, Katie & Ally

this is what i unwrapped during our brother & sister exchange, it was quickly stolen from me!

this is me at Prestons Grandparents Christmas morning, with his 2 cousins Kaitlyn & Erica and my sister in law Margo, we all got matching socks from the grandparents! lets see if we can not lose them and wear them next year!

opening presents :) I got everything i wanted for christmas, minus my husband.

but over all it was fabulous!

Happy new years everyone! i Pray its filled with blessings for all!!

JwF