Warning!!! --> Spiritual Post

I'm feeling a little deep today, I have so much on my mind with my life and things that someone close to me has shared about theirs and I'm praying that he gives me the right words to say to this person, I'm 24 yrs old and I dont feel very wise when it comes to being a spiritual counselor but yet I find that God has constantly placed these situations in my life where i am needed as one. He must know that I am strong enough to take the burdens of others, even when i feel as though I'm not the best to do so, He has always had more faith in me than i have myself. I really needed to hear some encouragement this morning and wasn't sure where to find it today, I took my bible and blindly opened it to a random section and counted to 3 as my finger slid down the passages on the page, once i got to 3 i stopped moving and this was the verse I had landed on. i know that's a very unconventional way of reading the bible and probably shouldn't count on that all the time but today the verse i stopped on was just what i needed to hear.

"Know therefore that the LORD your God, He is God,

the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and

His loving kindness to a thousandth generation with

those who love Him and keep His commandments;"

Deuteronomy 7:9 (NASB)





this verse also reminds me of this song i heard last week that stopped me in my tracks. its called *Blessing* by Laura Story. If you haven't heard it then you must! I'll add the youtube video to this post. It made me think "how many blessings do we pass up just because something feels different or is unfamiliar to us? " this song was the special music in church Sunday and I'm not really one who believes in coincidences and I think that everything happens for a reason and I almost didn't go to church that morning because i kept getting knocked back. the 1st thing was i over slept and almost just stayed home but I just felt i needed to be there and so i hurried to get dressed anyway, then i spilled makeup on my skirt just as i was about to leave and almost gave up then and just said forget it. but i hurried to find something else to wear. i made it to church 2 minuted before it started. I think the devil was trying to keep me home .... but he lost :) anyway my point was - i needed to hear those words that day and the message and I'm so glad i didn't give in and stay home!


read some these lyrics from this song -



"We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear

And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

All the while, You hear each desperate plea

And long that we'd have faith to believe



Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights

Are what it takes to know You’re near

And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy"

 

this song brings me to my knees and that part about trials in our lives being his mercies in disguise, I had never considered that trials in our lives could be anything more than that - I trial, a hard time, heartache & pain. when you go through those emotions its so hard to see the picture that is bigger than any of us. and I'm learning that those trials and how you handle them, shape you into who you are. they can break you or make you, and i will not be broken ... God is our rock, unmovable and during trials you are to take comfort in knowing that.


this post was a little random . . . sometimes i have a hard time sorting out all the things racing around in my head, ever feel that way?
take a minute and close your eyes and really listen to the words of this song ...... I hope it blesses you the way it has me ....

JwF

I'm still alive!

man I haven't been on here in a looooooooooong time!

and I have actually had stuff going on in my life the past few weeks to blog about! but i guess that's why I haven't though because I been kept pretty busy! in the last month ( wow yes a month) - I had a rangers game with my work crew that was so much fun, concrete was poured at mama & daddy's house site! thank you Jesus!! Kaitlyn was down from Dallas several time to visit! and Preston was home for a week! so all in all the past month has really been good! oh and i paid OFF two bills this month. very proud of that! i blinked and its the end of June! how sad that the year is going by so fast. and im not going to lie im a little  freaked out about turning 25 this year! i dont feel 25 ... not that its *old* but i dont feel it just the same. when i was younger i totally thought i'd have a couple of babies by now haha, i must have really given God a few good laughs when i would tell him my plans:) His & Mine do not seem to match up but i know His plan is better!

the week Preston was home ( which was 2 weeks ago now) is a blur, we had something to do just about every night so there wasn't a lot of down time but thats ok he had a good *visit* home :) my boss let me have 2 half days off and a full day off so im glad i got to have some time off work to spend with him. He will be home in about 2 weeks again :) and this time he is here for 2 whole weeks! and we have a trip planned around July 22nd to galveston! woohoo! not as cool as our vacation last year to Mexico but ill take it:) we are taking cousin Kaitlyn with us and sister Emily. We plan to go down there early Friday morning and stay till Sunday and then drive home that afternoon ( Preston will have to leave that Monday ) not sure exactly what we will all get in to down there but i think Schlitterbahn is in the cards and the beach of course! ( even if it is a brown muddy beach lol ) i'm ready for it!


This Saturday is the first annual Juvenile Diabetes Walk ( in tyler area, they have them all over the country though, we have been to the one in Dallas a couple of times) We are walking for Daddy & Christopher - our team grew to about 27 people!! woot woot! and we had shirts made for the event that are so cute! Kimberly gave Chris the nick name of Bete years ago when he was diagnosed and so we did all black shirts with colored letters and on Chris' shirt it says Bete and then on all of our girls shirts it says Bete's babes and on the boys Bete's Bro's and then my 3 nephews have shirts that say Bete's lil' buds. we are so cool lol. cant wait! we will take a lot of pictures i'm sure and i hope we get a good group shot! then that afternoon Laura & Emily and I are driving to Dallas to go to the huge outdoor Celebrate Freedom Concert ( Christian concert) I cant wait because Chris Tomlin is going to be performing!!! and i looooooove him!


I have been house sitting since last Friday - my Kiddos and their parents went to the beach for a week and im watching Cleo & Jack Jack. I miss the kids though! weird being here without them :) cant wait till they come home so i can hug on Jenna & Julia! but ya know its not bad having the big house and pool to myself! after work i can go and ReLaX !! i have read 3 books this week and on the 4th right now ... ahhh. love it. I was such a bookworm when i was younger i loved Nancy Drew and read that whole series several times, but those books only had a little over 100 pages so i could read several day. my summers were spend reading all day :) wish i still had all those books :( not sure what happened to all of them but one day i would like to have them all again! The series im reading this week is by christian author Dee Henderson, *The O'Malley Series" love it. its a series of 6 books about 7 people who all grew up together in a house for orphans and when they got older they became their own family, changed their name and so on. Each one has a fascinating career - US Marshall, Negotiator, Forensic Pathologist, Fire Fighter, Paramedic & Crisis Counselor. I have read this series i believe 7 times, first time i read them i was like 15 years old. i Finally bought the series about 3 or 4 years ago so i could stop using the ones from the church library all the time. so anyway if you ever need a book to read .... try these. you wont be disappointed!


So thats kinda what i have been up to. i plan on keeping up better in July i'm just not sure where the time went this month it was gone in a flash!  Ill be sure to post some pictures from this weekend!!

JwF