I'm feeling a little deep today, I have so much on my mind with my life and things that someone close to me has shared about theirs and I'm praying that he gives me the right words to say to this person, I'm 24 yrs old and I dont feel very wise when it comes to being a spiritual counselor but yet I find that God has constantly placed these situations in my life where i am needed as one. He must know that I am strong enough to take the burdens of others, even when i feel as though I'm not the best to do so, He has always had more faith in me than i have myself. I really needed to hear some encouragement this morning and wasn't sure where to find it today, I took my bible and blindly opened it to a random section and counted to 3 as my finger slid down the passages on the page, once i got to 3 i stopped moving and this was the verse I had landed on. i know that's a very unconventional way of reading the bible and probably shouldn't count on that all the time but today the verse i stopped on was just what i needed to hear.
"Know therefore that the LORD your God, He is God,
the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and
His loving kindness to a thousandth generation with
those who love Him and keep His commandments;"
Deuteronomy 7:9 (NASB)
this verse also reminds me of this song i heard last week that stopped me in my tracks. its called *Blessing* by Laura Story. If you haven't heard it then you must! I'll add the youtube video to this post. It made me think "how many blessings do we pass up just because something feels different or is unfamiliar to us? " this song was the special music in church Sunday and I'm not really one who believes in coincidences and I think that everything happens for a reason and I almost didn't go to church that morning because i kept getting knocked back. the 1st thing was i over slept and almost just stayed home but I just felt i needed to be there and so i hurried to get dressed anyway, then i spilled makeup on my skirt just as i was about to leave and almost gave up then and just said forget it. but i hurried to find something else to wear. i made it to church 2 minuted before it started. I think the devil was trying to keep me home .... but he lost :) anyway my point was - i needed to hear those words that day and the message and I'm so glad i didn't give in and stay home!
read some these lyrics from this song -
"We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy"
this song brings me to my knees and that part about trials in our lives being his mercies in disguise, I had never considered that trials in our lives could be anything more than that - I trial, a hard time, heartache & pain. when you go through those emotions its so hard to see the picture that is bigger than any of us. and I'm learning that those trials and how you handle them, shape you into who you are. they can break you or make you, and i will not be broken ... God is our rock, unmovable and during trials you are to take comfort in knowing that.
this post was a little random . . . sometimes i have a hard time sorting out all the things racing around in my head, ever feel that way?
take a minute and close your eyes and really listen to the words of this song ...... I hope it blesses you the way it has me ....
JwF
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
I'm still alive!
man I haven't been on here in a looooooooooong time!
and I have actually had stuff going on in my life the past few weeks to blog about! but i guess that's why I haven't though because I been kept pretty busy! in the last month ( wow yes a month) - I had a rangers game with my work crew that was so much fun, concrete was poured at mama & daddy's house site! thank you Jesus!! Kaitlyn was down from Dallas several time to visit! and Preston was home for a week! so all in all the past month has really been good! oh and i paid OFF two bills this month. very proud of that! i blinked and its the end of June! how sad that the year is going by so fast. and im not going to lie im a little freaked out about turning 25 this year! i dont feel 25 ... not that its *old* but i dont feel it just the same. when i was younger i totally thought i'd have a couple of babies by now haha, i must have really given God a few good laughs when i would tell him my plans:) His & Mine do not seem to match up but i know His plan is better!
the week Preston was home ( which was 2 weeks ago now) is a blur, we had something to do just about every night so there wasn't a lot of down time but thats ok he had a good *visit* home :) my boss let me have 2 half days off and a full day off so im glad i got to have some time off work to spend with him. He will be home in about 2 weeks again :) and this time he is here for 2 whole weeks! and we have a trip planned around July 22nd to galveston! woohoo! not as cool as our vacation last year to Mexico but ill take it:) we are taking cousin Kaitlyn with us and sister Emily. We plan to go down there early Friday morning and stay till Sunday and then drive home that afternoon ( Preston will have to leave that Monday ) not sure exactly what we will all get in to down there but i think Schlitterbahn is in the cards and the beach of course! ( even if it is a brown muddy beach lol ) i'm ready for it!
This Saturday is the first annual Juvenile Diabetes Walk ( in tyler area, they have them all over the country though, we have been to the one in Dallas a couple of times) We are walking for Daddy & Christopher - our team grew to about 27 people!! woot woot! and we had shirts made for the event that are so cute! Kimberly gave Chris the nick name of Bete years ago when he was diagnosed and so we did all black shirts with colored letters and on Chris' shirt it says Bete and then on all of our girls shirts it says Bete's babes and on the boys Bete's Bro's and then my 3 nephews have shirts that say Bete's lil' buds. we are so cool lol. cant wait! we will take a lot of pictures i'm sure and i hope we get a good group shot! then that afternoon Laura & Emily and I are driving to Dallas to go to the huge outdoor Celebrate Freedom Concert ( Christian concert) I cant wait because Chris Tomlin is going to be performing!!! and i looooooove him!
I have been house sitting since last Friday - my Kiddos and their parents went to the beach for a week and im watching Cleo & Jack Jack. I miss the kids though! weird being here without them :) cant wait till they come home so i can hug on Jenna & Julia! but ya know its not bad having the big house and pool to myself! after work i can go and ReLaX !! i have read 3 books this week and on the 4th right now ... ahhh. love it. I was such a bookworm when i was younger i loved Nancy Drew and read that whole series several times, but those books only had a little over 100 pages so i could read several day. my summers were spend reading all day :) wish i still had all those books :( not sure what happened to all of them but one day i would like to have them all again! The series im reading this week is by christian author Dee Henderson, *The O'Malley Series" love it. its a series of 6 books about 7 people who all grew up together in a house for orphans and when they got older they became their own family, changed their name and so on. Each one has a fascinating career - US Marshall, Negotiator, Forensic Pathologist, Fire Fighter, Paramedic & Crisis Counselor. I have read this series i believe 7 times, first time i read them i was like 15 years old. i Finally bought the series about 3 or 4 years ago so i could stop using the ones from the church library all the time. so anyway if you ever need a book to read .... try these. you wont be disappointed!
So thats kinda what i have been up to. i plan on keeping up better in July i'm just not sure where the time went this month it was gone in a flash! Ill be sure to post some pictures from this weekend!!
JwF
and I have actually had stuff going on in my life the past few weeks to blog about! but i guess that's why I haven't though because I been kept pretty busy! in the last month ( wow yes a month) - I had a rangers game with my work crew that was so much fun, concrete was poured at mama & daddy's house site! thank you Jesus!! Kaitlyn was down from Dallas several time to visit! and Preston was home for a week! so all in all the past month has really been good! oh and i paid OFF two bills this month. very proud of that! i blinked and its the end of June! how sad that the year is going by so fast. and im not going to lie im a little freaked out about turning 25 this year! i dont feel 25 ... not that its *old* but i dont feel it just the same. when i was younger i totally thought i'd have a couple of babies by now haha, i must have really given God a few good laughs when i would tell him my plans:) His & Mine do not seem to match up but i know His plan is better!
the week Preston was home ( which was 2 weeks ago now) is a blur, we had something to do just about every night so there wasn't a lot of down time but thats ok he had a good *visit* home :) my boss let me have 2 half days off and a full day off so im glad i got to have some time off work to spend with him. He will be home in about 2 weeks again :) and this time he is here for 2 whole weeks! and we have a trip planned around July 22nd to galveston! woohoo! not as cool as our vacation last year to Mexico but ill take it:) we are taking cousin Kaitlyn with us and sister Emily. We plan to go down there early Friday morning and stay till Sunday and then drive home that afternoon ( Preston will have to leave that Monday ) not sure exactly what we will all get in to down there but i think Schlitterbahn is in the cards and the beach of course! ( even if it is a brown muddy beach lol ) i'm ready for it!
This Saturday is the first annual Juvenile Diabetes Walk ( in tyler area, they have them all over the country though, we have been to the one in Dallas a couple of times) We are walking for Daddy & Christopher - our team grew to about 27 people!! woot woot! and we had shirts made for the event that are so cute! Kimberly gave Chris the nick name of Bete years ago when he was diagnosed and so we did all black shirts with colored letters and on Chris' shirt it says Bete and then on all of our girls shirts it says Bete's babes and on the boys Bete's Bro's and then my 3 nephews have shirts that say Bete's lil' buds. we are so cool lol. cant wait! we will take a lot of pictures i'm sure and i hope we get a good group shot! then that afternoon Laura & Emily and I are driving to Dallas to go to the huge outdoor Celebrate Freedom Concert ( Christian concert) I cant wait because Chris Tomlin is going to be performing!!! and i looooooove him!
I have been house sitting since last Friday - my Kiddos and their parents went to the beach for a week and im watching Cleo & Jack Jack. I miss the kids though! weird being here without them :) cant wait till they come home so i can hug on Jenna & Julia! but ya know its not bad having the big house and pool to myself! after work i can go and ReLaX !! i have read 3 books this week and on the 4th right now ... ahhh. love it. I was such a bookworm when i was younger i loved Nancy Drew and read that whole series several times, but those books only had a little over 100 pages so i could read several day. my summers were spend reading all day :) wish i still had all those books :( not sure what happened to all of them but one day i would like to have them all again! The series im reading this week is by christian author Dee Henderson, *The O'Malley Series" love it. its a series of 6 books about 7 people who all grew up together in a house for orphans and when they got older they became their own family, changed their name and so on. Each one has a fascinating career - US Marshall, Negotiator, Forensic Pathologist, Fire Fighter, Paramedic & Crisis Counselor. I have read this series i believe 7 times, first time i read them i was like 15 years old. i Finally bought the series about 3 or 4 years ago so i could stop using the ones from the church library all the time. so anyway if you ever need a book to read .... try these. you wont be disappointed!
So thats kinda what i have been up to. i plan on keeping up better in July i'm just not sure where the time went this month it was gone in a flash! Ill be sure to post some pictures from this weekend!!
JwF
Sunday, May 22, 2011
4wheelin'
this past week at work was rather stressful and i do not expect this week to be any less :-/ so i decided to have a nice quiet weekend relaxing - starting with Saturday - my plan was to sleep in late, lay in bed pretty much the entire day finishing up the Xfiles series and catching up on tv shows i had missed during the week and then end the day with Dinner with one of my friends who i have really been wanting to catch up with. sounds nice right? well what actually happened was - i was wide awake at 6:30 so i went ahead and started the last disc of xfiles, and right as the VERY LAST episode started - BAM! tree knocked our power out! uhg - seriously? just great. so i was faced with boredom ... then i see my brother Chris and our friend Ronnie on the 4wheelers and thought ... hmmmm lets go for a ride through the woods down to I-20! the guys go riding all the time and i never do so i get into my tall black rain/mud boots and off we go! Emily (sister) came along too, we were out riding for 2 hours! there are some scary paths out in the woods and steep hills we went up and down, obviously i have A LOT of trust in my brother and he is a great driver! :) it was so much fun and we got totally muddy but thank you, Jesus, when we got back to the house late afternoon the power was back on so we could shower! and i got to finish my series:) and i also still got to meet up with my girlfriend for dinner and we ended up being at Posado's for 2 1/2 hours chatting it up! and then i went back to her house for another hour or so. good times and so glad we got to catch up!
all the excitement from saturday wore me out and i slept till about 9 on sunday, oops! but my little body needed it i suppose. i recorded the xfiles movie saturday night so when i did finally get up and move around sunday i went to mom and dads to do my laundry and i watched the movie, it came out 3 years ago, almost 7 years after the series ended and i saw it in theaters back then and i never sit till the end of credits on movies and i so wish i had back then because today i was just letting credits roll and i saw that there was an extra scene! i was so mad i missed this lol. they did have their happily ever after ending and i never knew. im such a sucker for happy endings and i was obsessed with this show and their story and it really made me feel all warm and fuzzy to see it end that way. still wish they would keep doing movies every few years though, oh well - i have the whole series and the movies so ill just watch it all again every year, its like a good book you can read a hundred times over. ahh :) anyway then i took the 4wheeler down to the house site and helped daddy fill in the holes that they made to lay the plumbing pipes in, so that the truck with the concrete can drive all around the house when they come. and man was it hot! shoveling is not an easy job. by the time i got back to the house Chris, Ronnie & Emily were home from church & lunch and we all went riding again. this time i took my earbuds and had my itunes playing jams the whole time, nothing better for relaxing than riding through the "jungle" and listening to good music :) oh how i love country life, today made me really lean towards building my house at here in the woods close to mom and dads house site. i just love being by my family and doing things like this together. after that ride and working outside with dad i was worn out! took a shower because i was covered in mud from the thighs down again and chilled out with everyone at the house eating a super yummy watermelon! could this be any better? before it got too dark we went down to plant moms two new Maple trees that she got, she is going to get a few more they will all line the new driveway, they turn this beautiful red & pink in the fall! I had a great weekend at home with my family and kept busy and it kept me from focusing on the fact that i miss my husband terribly and 7 weeks is still a long time ....
loneliness is a horrible thing, i would give anything to spend an hour with him right now, i have my good days and i have my bad... friday was a bad day and i just wanted my husband. this week will be so nuts that ill be too busy to be down about it, I just have to be positive and say ONLY 7 more weeks then he will be home for 3 weeks!! ::that is hard to be!:: say a prayer for us, its always the hardest in the middle of his away time.
Hope everyone has a great week and as drama free as it can be! I for one am dreading this week, but this weekend will be awesome!! 2 Ranger games :) ssswwweeeeeeettttt :D
its about to storm here, i have been watching the lightening for a while now and i think i'm going to let the sound of the rain put me to sleep! good night!
JwF
Monday, May 16, 2011
working hard or hardly working?
Hmm ... where did last week go?
I worked Monday -Wednesday and then i spent Wednesday night - Sunday night with these two monkeys
love them :)
their mama and daddy went to Las Vegas for a few days and i was happy to love on these babies!
big brother jacob stayed with a friend so i had lots of girl time and fixing their hair twice a day and wardrobe changes :) these kids have a better wardrobe than i do! they were perfect angel babies of course:) i have another weekend planned with them in a couple of weeks! that was my excitement for the month.
this guy below ... I sure have been missing him :( only 7 1/2 more weeks till he comes home! and then he will be here for i think 3 weeks and then out again till the first of Nov. probably. this is definitely the most time i have been alone in my life lol. but believe it or not you do adjust to all the time apart. not that its fun or anything but it did get better. and knowing that he is happy with this job makes it easier. when he comes home in july we hope to take a 3 day weekend trip to Galveston, not as cool as last years vacation to Cozumel but ill take it :)
This week i'm hoping passes quickly, im anxious for saturday when we pour concrete at mama and daddy's house site. its going to be fun:) daddy says i get to rake it smooth ... or i could just supervise and take pictures. he has threatened us NOT to write our name anywhere ... im so doing it somewhere. and my brother in law seth will be in houston that day doing the Iron Man competition! wish i could be two places at once! that would be so cool to see, if you dont know exactly what that is google it. he is crazy.
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I have been thinking a lot lately about what we (I) want to do when its time to finally move out on our own again ( which hopefully will be within the next 3-5 months) and i can't decide on -House, Apartment or Building one on dads land maybe. i did find a house several months ago at Pratt that i fell in love with thats affordable and seriously gorgeous inside. and i know if we tried to buy a house in town that im going to be so picky because i dont want a house thats just old and outdated inside and needs lots of work ... and im not buying an expensive one that empties my wallet every month just to have it. and i'd rather not go back to an apartment and and waste that money in rent but then again the apartment is the simplest thing to do for now maybe. buying a house would be so scary! ahh! see? stressful. what to do what to do..... I shall continue to ponder these thoughts...
Hope everyone has a great week! spend time with the ones you love!
JwF
Friday, May 6, 2011
Happy Mother's Day to my 3 Moms
HaPpY MoThEr'S DaY!!
to my 3 mama's that I love :)
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My Red Headed Mama:)
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My Wonderful Mother In Law LeaAnn
Its hard to get a picture with her so all i have are old ones on my computer!
April 2011
Happy Mothers Day LeaAnn!!!!
I am who i am because of these women! yep, thats right - ITS ALL YOUR FAULT :)
I'm totally blaming my attitude on Michelle haha!! :D
I Love You all!
JwF
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Pictures!! :D
Sunday we had our pictures done by Jordan @
AmericanClassic Photogrpahy (FB)
I think they came out great! very pleased with them.
we haven't had any done in 2 years!
i love this picture, i have learned to love my one dimple! i blew this one up to 8x10 and put it in
daddy's office haha! he will find it monday morning
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the rose garden was beautiful! everything was blooming and so bright and colorful!
WARNING:
one of the following 4 pictures was NOT put on FB because its a little much but it was really funny and since not a lot
of people know about this blog anyway then i think
its safe to put it on here! :)
1: i knew he was up to something
i see my sisters in this picture
look! a normal one of preston!!
so there you go, we had so many done its hard to pick a favorite! I cant wait for the fall to do another shoot!
JwF
Monday, April 25, 2011
RaNgErS!!!
Saturday i went to my first rangers game of the season :) woohoo!
getting ready to leave tyler ;)
before the game we hung out with cousin kaitlyn and went to Ikea and the mall;)
cant wait to buy tickets for May :) game every month? i think so!
I love making memories at the ranger games:)
JwF
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